Meeting JUSTIN BIEBER :)

I met JUSTIN BIEBER.

The Biebs gave me a hug & called me sweetie!

Saturday January 5, 2013 SLC

"Everything starts from something. But something would be nothing. Nothing if your heart didn't dream with me. Where would you be if you didn't believe. Believe."

-Justin Bieber

"I'm telling you. Everyday we wake up is another blessing. Follow your heart and dreams and don't let anyone stop you. Never say never."

-JB

"The success I've achieved comes to me from God."

-JB

"You can't fly unless you let yourself fall."

-JB

Me & my CURLY hair getting ready to meet the Biebs :)

Here comes the story of an adventurous weekend, of living life to the fullest, of making impossible dreams possible. Of meeting Justin Bieber. Unless you live an isolated life in the most remote parts of the world with no technology whatsoever, you KNOW who Justin Bieber is... he's currently one of the most famous and successful singers/artists of all time. He's the Biebs. He has an insane group of girls who are obsessed with Bieber. They're called "Beliebers" and they scared me! I'm not a Belieber, but I do believe in him, the message he promotes about believing in yourself and making your dreams come true, letting nothing get in your way or no one stop you, and I think he's an amazing person. He's a cutie with off-the-charts, mind blowing talent. He was born to dance and sing. He inspires me. 

To continue the saga of this enchanting Bieber Fever weekend, my brother Christian (we call him Lambsey... don't ask!) went to the concert and meet and greet with me. We went to SLC and got all ready to meet Bieber. We had to meet this man named Lars in this secretive will call place in the Energy Solutions Arena and talk to him on my cell phone so the "Beliebers" wouldn't rush in and storm the place. Can I just say it was freezing outside! Below freezing. Lambsey and I rushed to meet Lars at 3:30. I admire the storm of "Beliebers" standing in the cold waiting to see a glimpse of him. I couldn't do it.

The cold hurt but was worth the warmth of butterflies swarming in my stomach and being held in Justin's arms, full of pure adrenaline, light radiating from his smile and presence. Lars gave us our meet and greet VIP passes and tickets. Then we, and around 30-40 other VIPs, were escorted by all of this security to this weird, sketchy underground tunnel. 

That's me in the sketchy tunnel with my neon orange VIP wristband. #thethingsyougothroughtomeetjustinbieber

After about 30 minutes of standing in this tunnel, everyone stars talking to each other about how we got our passes and where we were from. Everyone was so nice. We all wondered what the hold up was. It got to be around 5:00. The waiting seemed endless. Then FINALLY the meet and greet started. I was unbelievably excited as I walked each step... closer to seeing Justin Bieber face to face! My heart was about to jump out of my chest with the adrenaline coursing through my veins. Up until that moment, it didn't feel real. Then it hit me when we walked through this curtain and it was just me and Lambsey...

And there he was! JUSTIN BIEBER.

 Christian, Justin Bieber, and me!

His dark brown eyes gazed into mine for a brief instant that felt frozen in time for those few seconds. It was electric. We walked over to Justin, who smiled widely, and shook Lambsey's hand and said, "Hey man, nice to meet ya!" Then he turned to met and he breathed, "Hey sweetie. It's so great to meet you." And he flashed me that smile. Then he gave me a hug. My heart melted, it was like a moment of heaven.

Justin wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I rested my hand on his back and Lambsey stood next to him on the opposite side. We weren't allowed to bring our own cameras. Justin had his own professional photographer there who took our picture. 

Minutes later, his security guards escorted us away through more random mazes of hallways into an elevator. We had to ride the elevator to the main floor. Inside the elevators, Justin's people made us take off our meet and greet wrist bands. They cut them off and wouldn't let us keep them. It made me sad. I wanted to put it in my journal. I've yet to figure what that was all about.

We discovered the reason it took so long to finally meet JB. He went to Primary Childrens Medical Center to visit this poor sick litle girl who is a major Bieber fan. She's dying of cancer and he went over and met her and gave her and her family a miniature private concert. What a sweetheart! That made me respect him even more. He couldn't sign any autographs because there wasn't enough time since he made that unexpected trip but I was okay with that. 

I'd still never trade those few minutes making a dream come true. Never say never. Always believe. Meeting the Biebs was like watching fireworks explode in the night sky. They light up the sky, light up your entire world, captivating, beautiful, breathtaking, magical, electric. Then, before you know it, they're gone, but you'll never forget them and how wonderstruck you feel. When you close your eyes you can still see the light. That light stays in your memory and heart always and forever... what a blessing that is.

"I love it when you look at me because I know for a moment I crossed your mind"

This quote is so fitting. I know Justin Bieber has probably forgotten me by now, but I still love the idea that I met him, we crossed paths, and that for that one moment I was on his mind and the memory happened and will remain a part of our minds and stories forever. 

I still can't believe I met Justin Bieber.

Making your dreams come true... nothing makes you feel more ALIVE. Nothing gets your heart racing like that. Nothing makes you that happy. BELIEVE. You have to believe. That's the first step to taking your dreams and making them reality. You can do it. Everyone told me that meeting Justin Bieber was impossible. Well I MADE IT POSSIBLE. Impossible is nothing. Lovelies, be believing. Let this be the year you make your dreams come true. Make your own fairytale.

<W3/L (With Love),

Charley Brooke

Hiding My Heart (Worlds Apart)

I went missing.

Disappeared.

Did anyone notice?

I missed you.

Where did July go? 

It vanished with me, or maybe I became invisible in it.

Either way, I am back.

I have soooo much inspiration & stuff to share & talk about. 

I feel tired and uninspired at times.

And I wrote this last night...

I want to catch a break but I'm only breaking down. Breaking apart. Broken. Falling, falling, forever. Falling to pieces. Fading. Invisible. Disappearing. Gone. And no one notices or cares. It's an effortless mess, my SOS, calling out to deaf ears in distress. The girl (me, I) is hopeless. She's open for suggestions and directions. She can barely breathe. Countless questions.  Is she wonderful? Do you wonder about her? Or is it any wonder [her fate]? Full of wonder. Wondering. Waiting. Is it mere coincidence the fact that fate rhymes with wait, or is it something deeper? I'm getting weaker. And you, you, you. You. It ends with you, or more accurately begins with you. Always you. Only you. Perfect you. The one. Will you come slowly or run? She can be found if only you look. Find me. Save me. Embrace me. Press me to you. Hold me. Tighter. Never letting go, or you'd fall too. Strength in two becoming one. Learn me. Feel me. Catch me. Memorize me. Love me. I am yours forever. Irrevocably. Unconditionally. Enduring. Wishing. Hoping. Dreaming. Living. Flying. Breathing. Like stars crashing into each other at the speed of our hearts in a cold, dark light-years-length, infinite galaxy, transforming into one radiant, bright, shining star bursting, glowing, filling the sky, and each other, with warmth, light, and electricity. We are a star. You are my star. Guide me home.

Yeah it's kind of rough and inconsistent and a mess, but it was from the heart. That's what matters right?

Okay August had better be amazing for all of us lovelies. Lets make it so... no matter what. 

 "Entwined. All that we are is defined by each others shipwrecked hearts and I shiver to think what would have been if I wouldn't have seen you in time... would we we pass by? Like parachutes and air balloons or satellites and lonely moons. We'd still be drifting far apart but thank the stars we are entwined. All that you are is mine. Your divine imperfections color the dark, and I shiver to see how fragile you are when the world's such a cruel place to be. Then you cut me free. Lets walk the tightrope together without a safety net and when we fall, and we will fall, lets fall forever... entwined."

-Jason Reeves

 "Life is the most fragile, unstable, unpredictable thing there is."

-Meredith Grey

 "All anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone."

-Meredith Grey

 "The only time I don't feel like a ghost is when you look at me. You see me."

-Owen Hunt

 "Don't forget--no one else sees the world the way you do, so no one else can tell the stories that you have to tell."

-Charles de Lint

 "Some people say home is where you come from. But I think it's a place you need to find, like it's scattered and you pick pieces of it up along the way."

-Katie Kacvinsky

 "That's what love is. It's some power greater than you and me that draws us to one special person."

-Jodi PiCoult

 "You have to take chances in life to get anywhere worthwhile."

-Me

 "Our paths keep crossing

but never quite touch

You're so close I can almost feel you

Yet impossibly out of reach

When will our parallel paths

become only one?"

-Me

 "You don't love someone because they're perfect. You love them in spite of the fact that they're not. Because they are perfect in your eyes."

 "Every now and then something amazing happens and best case scenarios seem possible. And against our better judgment, we start to have hope."

-Meredith Grey

"Sometimes the only way to catch your breath is to lose it completely."

-Tyler Knott Gregson

 Brie & CiCi on the 4th of July!

"You only make a once in a lifetime friend... once in a lifetime!"

-The Little Rascals

Have an amazing day lovelies... always remember that someone is (or will be) lucky to have you.

With love,

Charley Brooke

How To Fall Out of Love with Love

let's take a better look... 

 beyond a story book

 and learn our souls are all we own

 before we turn to stone

 lets go to sleep with clearer heads

 and hearts too big to fit our beds and maybe we won't feel so alone

before we turn to stone

charley brooke

amazing[ly] [clueless] girl [full of] wonder

yes, i had a photoshoot of sorts today... 

It's been far too long, lovelies.

Let's talk...

This is me.

I want to be all inspiration-y 24/7, 365, forever-and-ever-and-ever, to infinity & beyond, don't we all?

If life was all sunshines, movie moments, perfect days, find our true love the instant we wish for him on birthday candles, at 11:11, or when our hearts ache for that person, that unknown soul wandering somewhere-who-knows-where, would be paradise. But that isn't how life works as, and I for one can testify to this time and again, much as we all desire for it to be that way. We just have to keep going even when the going is tough and you want to stop going because who knows where the next miracle, the next movie moment, the next wish come true will come from... or when? They happen, you know? 

I, also for one, can tell you that I am constantly thinking that I am the exception... that I am exempt from the good stuff, that my happily ever after is non existent and instead I am forced to be alone always and forever, watching everyone else (all of my friends, family, associates, strangers, everyone else BUT ME) live these perfect, happy, sunshine-y lives finding love, finding adventure, finding themselves, finding family... and me, stuck in this limbo state of nothingness, defective me... girl who is a boy repellant (apparently) and not ever good enough (or even close) no matter how hard she tries.

Trust me lovelies, NO ONE judges me, criticizes me, more than myself. So for all those who do out there, I can assure you that I do enough damage for everyone. Why though? Why am I not good enough? Why am I light years away from finding love or true happiness when it seems like everyone around me doesn't even have to try, they just get it without any effort? Why do I make people run, leave, race away and never look or come back to me? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? And most of all, and this is the big one, WHY DO I WANT TO BE IN LOVE? 

I don't really know if there are answers to these questions. 

For any of you who have ever felt the way I feel, I know what you're going through but I also know you'll get through. You aren't the only one who is broken. It's only when we are broken that we can become built stronger, better than before. It's easy to feel like you're alone, destined for loneliness, despite the fact that there are 7+ billion people in this world. How commonplace it is to feel alone in crowded rooms. 

Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.

That being said, I believe that we are too hard on ourselves. We are too busy being worried about impression others and not making a fool of ourselves and miss out on the fun, the happiness. We shut ourselves out, build walls that can touch the stars around our hearts, and that's no way to live. No way to love. We all have something to give, and we should give until nothing is left, and even then keep giving, keep surviving, keep thriving, keep loving, keep laughing, keep working, keep inspiring, keep keeping on. 

You may feel like you're nothing new, but that isn't true. You are the only you there is. And I have to trust in my convictions and have faith that someone out there will appreciate and love every single part of me unconditionally, someone will do the same for you. First, to find someone you love, you've got to love yourself. Smile. Be kind to others. You create beauty with your attitude, your behavior, your actions. It's all up to you. Is what you are living for, worth dying for? Chances come briefly and out of nowhere and at times that may feel awkward or rushed, but take them! Because chances only come rarely and often not twice. Yes, they come with risks and are scary, but it's good to be afraid, it means you have something to lose... something worth losing. That's how we feel alive. 

I don't know about the rest of you lovelies, but I am not afraid of dying... I am not entirely fearless, I must admit... here's my biggest fear: the unlived life (not living life to the fullest). 

As the AMAZING, WONDERFUL, TALENTED, ARTIST, POET, EXTRAORDINAIRE Tyler Knott Gregson wrote, "It is only when we decide that 'ordinary' is an insult that we become the exquisite miracles we were born to be."

As for the title of this post: HOW TO FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH LOVE

I am not sure it's possible. 

I believe once you are in love with someone or something, truly in love, that it's impossible to fall out of love with it. 

After all, you should never give up on anything you can't go a day without thinking about. 

With Love,

C