Always & Forever-Happy 2nd Anniversary to Tybrey

Happy 2nd Anniversary

Mr. &. Mrs. Tyson & Aubrey Young

(aka my best friend/older sister & her lovely husband)

This is for them!

A few months before they were married, I wrote about them and their relationship in my journal, I said
"I just returned from hanging out with Aubrey and Tyson. I love them both so much. I strive to be as amazing of a girl as Brie is so my prayers will be answered with the most amazing husband aka a guy like Tyson. Just seeing them together makes me want to cry. I don't mean what I am going to say next in a creepy-I-wanna-steal-your-future-husband way, but I am jealous of Brie. I love looking at their wedding plans and it's so exciting. I'm more happy for them than I've ever been. I know they are meant to be. I can feel it so much I almost can't breathe when I'm around them. I've never come close to imagining, yet alone feeling, the true perfect love I see when they gaze into each others eyes."

A few weeks before they were married I wrote:

"Aubrey and Tyson are told us their love story from both perspectives tonight. It is cute and romantic. They truly are in love--undeniably & irrevocably--and it's a beautiful thing because it's so rare. Those two give me hope that love exists."

Later that night, I e-mail Tyson.

"Tyson, thanks for answering every question I ask you, haha even when I ask the most random ones. You are so smart beyond comprehension. Your testimony is inspiring. I am grateful for prayer. It's amazing how some of the things, and questions, I had been praying about were answered tonight during our discussion. I am so happy for you and Aubrey. You are perfect for the most amazing girl of a best friend, Brie. I know you will take the best care of her and treat her like a princess. I can't wait for the wedding."

This was Tyson's response.

"Thank you Charley. I am here anytime you need some inspiration. I love Aubrey beyond death and I know that what I learned in the Gospel will only make our love grow stronger. I know that you will find the right person for you in your life. Keep your chin up. Remember that you are a hard worker and it will all pay off in the future."

Brie and I had a sleepover soon after and gave me some advice of her own.

"Oh my little sister, you are amazing! I want you to always remember how special you are. I don't care what other people tell you, don't give in and settle for less than you deserve. 

Don't listen to others, you deserve a guy who can man up and admit that he wants a relationship. You deserve everything that you could ever want! Don't let yourself feel like you weren't good enough because if the Lord puts you with him (your future love) and you are meant to be with him, it will work. 

Just spend your time preparing to be ready for the man when he finally comes! BE PATIENT! I promise, it will be worth it. This one is finally the one you need to listen to me on! Ignore everyone else and wait for the best! I'm serious, it is worth it!

Listen to it darling."

The night before the wedding--Thursday June 3, 2010

McHale, Aubrey, and I are sitting in our hotel room having our last sleepover/girls night because tomorrow Aubrey and Tyson are getting married! Ahhhh! My best friend is getting married tomorrow! My dear Aubrey Ann Taylor is going to be Aubrey Ann Young. Tyson, Cid, Phil, and Tod are in a room near ours as are Brie's parents. We are in SLC.

We've had an amazingly fun time! It's gone by so fast. Brie, McHale, and I took McHale's car and drove up to Layton. On our way up, we talked, sang at the top of our lungs to music, accomplish a goal on Brie's list, and had the absolute best time. The goal on her list was #79 Sing The Entire 99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall song. We did that. It was fun. You get way dizzy and almost feel drunk singing the whole thing haha. Who knew singing and counting could be so hard?

Then we had dinner at Olive Garden. It was delicious as always. We went to the mall and did some shopping. Tonight, we met up with the boys and got in one car and drove around the city and stopped at the Capitol Building. We ran around like kids, chasing each other and just genuinely loving life and our time together. It's beautiful. I want to go back someday.

Well now we need sleep! It's sooo late. By tomorrow, Aubrey will be married!

The next day they were married & become husband & wife <3

It was a lovely, stunning, perfect day--06/05/10

TYBREY 

(Tyson+Aubrey)

Established 2010

Always & Forever

I was Brie's maid of honor & it was an honor. 

She will be mine if (and that's a big IF) I ever get married.

They say thee cutest things to each other on Facebook (and in person) it just makes me smile.

Everyone deserves a love story like theirs and if you be patient and never settle, I believe you can find your love story.

So Happy Anniversary... two of the best years of your lives... and here's to infinity & beyond more to come, forever & always, for eternity... Forever YOUNG (as it is your last name :) )

The Salt Lake City Temple... the castle where Prince Tyson married Princess Aubrey...

This is a picture of a page in one of my journals from 2009. 

It was the first time I met Tyson & it was instantaneous, the fact that I knew he & Brie were meant to be.

Sam (my ex) is obviously out of the picture of my life now (but that's an entirely different story that doesn't matter).

Brie & CiCi dying Easter eggs a few months before the wedding.

Dancing in the middle of dying Easter eggs... so presh.

Their wedding line up

From left: Phil, some-boy-whose-name-I-don't-recall, Tod, Cid, Tyson [the handsome groom], Brie [the gorgeous bride], CiCi [me aka the maid of honor], Jenelle, & Ashley.

This is one of the most recent pictures I have of us.

Well Brie & me... from left it's Heidi, Brie, me, Brie's mom, & Brie's dad

Tyson isn't pictured because he was taking the picture.

Brie's 23rd B-Day.

Wedding day!!!

From Left: McHale [my sister], Tod, Cid, Phil, Tyson, Brie, & C [me]

A few months before the wedding, Tyson & I make Easter egg art!

Awh they got me a spider cake for my birthday this year!

Halloween with the bestest of friends.

Good times last forever.

Last sleepover with the best friend before she became a married woman.

CiCi & Brie. 

Best friends FOREVER.

The Youngs :)

We are sillies.

Well I have just one last thing to say to you two (and the rest of you lovelies)...
The following quotes are from One Tree Hill (which if you hadn't been able to tell by my last few posts, is like my new favorite show ever.


"Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise, like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. A belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. The celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempests of the world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is a mere formality only an announcement to the world of feelings long held, promises made long ago in the sacred spaces of our hearts."
-I wish I could've read this at your reception & ring ceremony, but it rings just as true today as it did then, will tomorrow, and for the rest of your lives. This is got to be one of my favorite quotes of all time. It evokes so many emotions and paints a picture of a love story known only by few... yours included. 


"Shakespeare said, 'Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds. It is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken. Love alters not with time's brief hours and weeks,  but bears it out even to the edge of doom.' When life gets hard, when things change, true love remains the same."

To Tyson & Aubrey Young, and a love that will not alter...

Helena, Montana Wedding

A few weekends ago, the family [mom, Bob, Jordan, Chrish, & I] flew in Bob's plane to Helena, Montana for my stepbrother Jordan & his new bride to be Britton's wedding. 

McHale & Alex drove.

Helena is gorgeous. 

The view from the plane was amazing and it's overall such a beautiful place.

We stayed overnight in this awesome hotel with these huge suites that each had their own kitchens, dining rooms, & living rooms (along with bedrooms & bathroom). 

I shared a suite with Christian.

After going to dinner at the Macaroni Grill with the family & extended family members, doing some shopping, and sightseeing, we went back to our hotel.

Funny story about Chrish & I's suite: we walked in and were still just amazed at how big the suite was... we were exploring around looking at the kitchen, living room, dining room, two huge TVs, bedroom with two huge beds, and bathroom. We are thinking to ourselves "wow... this is cool!" and then we look out this window in our bedroom and see a graveyard right outside our window! No lie! Haha kinda sketchy and a little creepy. 

My stepbrother Tyler lives in Montana & when we told him about it he said, "That's Helena, Montana for you!"

Chrish & I stayed up watching "Storage Wars". It's kind of an addicting show but not as much as "One Tree Hill"! We are obsessed with "One Tree Hill"... I got all my siblings obsessed about it. I can't believe I didn't know about it until recently! I bought all the DVDs & just love love love it. We would've watched it, but there wasn't a DVD player. You should check it out if you haven't seen it because it's a-m-a-z-i-n-g. 

Anyways, the next day was the wedding--Saturday May 12, 2012--Jordan & Britton got married at the Helena Country Club outside. It was lovely and pretty outside where it was held. Britton looked stunning, like a bridal model. I am so happy for them, Mr. & Mrs. Jordan and Britton Allen. 

 view from the plane of Helena, Montana!

 Another picture over Helena.

 Christian [the little brother] & I in the plane...

 Gorgeous view from the sky.

 My mom, me, & Jordan [sister] at the reception.

 Jordan creeping on me at the wedding. She's a notorious creeper!

 The twin & I 

[haha so Christian & I aren't really twins but we were both born on October 14 [me 1989 and him 1996] & look the most alike out of all of our siblings so we call ourselves "twins 7 years apart" cause in reality we kinda are!]

 My beautiful family.

Jord, Chrish, mom, Bob [stepdad], Colton [stepbrother], me, McHale [sis], & Alex [Kale's boyfriend]

 Family & Friends > Everything Else

 Most of the family... not pictured are three other stepbrothers... yes we have a BIG family. 

If we all go somewhere (dinner, movie, etc) together we often get called the Brady Bunch.

 Kiss the bride... Jordan & Britton Allen.

The happily married couple... they are the cutest. I am so happy for them!

It's Almost A Love Story [ies] Part 4

AIDEN

October 2010

I've already mentioned Aiden (name changed) in a post way back in October about him helping me accomplish #38 on my list of things to do before I die aka swing on a rope swing. My mom and grandma went shopping at this antique store in another town to buy decorations for my new stepdad Robert Allen's house. They said a cute boy was working, and they talked to him. He was an RM and spoke Spanish. They wanted to set him up with me so they gave him my number. Of course I was embarrassed and skeptical. We started texting and Facebooked each other. He was cute and nice, but I wasn't holding my breath or thinking anything would come of it. It's a funny story though. The way we met, I mean.

Journal entry--Saturday October 16, 2010 aka The Sweetest Day (it's a real holiday like Valentines Day)

"Talk about the sweetest Sweetest Day ever! I went on a date with Aiden, who is incredibly incredible and a hopeless romantic like me, and devastatingly handsome, and the first date went so great that we're official/dating as Facebook says "in a relationship". We just connected right from the start. We went to dinner at Buddy's (a local Italian restaurant) and he was my Valentine :) It's like we've known each other forever. We both have been skydiving, love soda pop, have a passion for life, love Oregon, and more. He's also spontaneous like me.

After dinner, we went to my parents' house and watched Charly in the theater room and cuddled. How I've missed cuddling and butterflies. He met McHale, Christian, and Robert Allen. Mom texted me during our date and asked how it was. I said "amazing" and she replied, "Wow I am a great matchmaker" haha.

Then Aiden and I came to my apartment and hung out with Rian and Hannah. He taught us how to play a card game called Nurts! He gets along great with Rian and Hannah, and they like him. It was a blast.

Aiden is amazing. He proved me wrong on the chivalry-doesn't-exist thing. He opened the car doors for me, called me beautiful, bought dinner, and took me swinging at the park because I wanted to go swinging. It's almost too good to be true, you know? I'm a bit scared. I mean he is the closest guy I've ever met to perfect and it's unreal. It's like a dream. I don't want to rush into things and fall for him and get hurt. I guess I will see how things go and maybe this fairy tale like romance will be reality and lead to happily ever after."

Journal entry--Sunday October 17, 2010

"Aiden is amazing. I honestly feel like I've known him forever yet we've been apart and now when we are together it's the best, and I'm complete. That empty inside-missing-something-but-not-sure-what feeling is gone. At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world, and all I want is Aiden. But it seems like you get hurt the moment you begin to care. However, I can't deny the chemistry, and I believe in fate. I am falling for him faster than I am able to comprehend. If I fall, I hope he intends to catch me and hold me in his arms forever. I feel more alive than ever. He's kinda, basically, pretty much, sort of, always on my mind now. I was with him almost all night, and I miss him like crazy. He came over today, and we took a nap and layed in each others arms, and I loved every second. We tell each other things like best friends. We were so close yet not close enough. He's 24 so he's mature and it's the best. Maybe he's the one, maybe not, I guess I'll let my Heavenly Father let me know.

I've been praying about Aiden. I know it's silly and makes not the slightest drop of sense, but I love everything about him even though we just met yesterday. I was driving home and thinking about Aiden and how unbelievable this week/weekend has been, and I felt a warm feeling inside my heart for him. The feeling was so intense and overwhelming. That's never happened to me. It stunned me. I mean I am one of those people that doesn't believe in love at first sight. I laugh at people who say they're in love after a week and act like it. I mean how do you love someone you barely know? It's ridiculous, I know. So why and how on Earth do I feel like I'm feeling that way? And, hypothetically, if it's true and the real thing, how do I explain it and get people to believe it when I hardly can and it's suddenly crashed into me at the speed of light? How do you explain something you can't even understand yourself?"

Okay Tuesday October 19, 2010 was the rope swing thing, and it's explained in detail in a previous entry, so if you haven't read it and want to, it's not hard to find. Here is the rest of my journal entry that night that isn't included in the rope swing post.

"Confession time: Two weeks together, that's all it took, two weeks for me to fall for him... I think I am falling in love with Aiden. No matter how impossible it sounds, I think it's true. I can't deny the truth. I cannot control my heart and the way it feels when I am with Aiden, when he looks at me with those blue eyes that I get lost in until time might as well have stopped and nothing else matters in that moment, when I am in his arms, when we kiss, when we talk. Despite this fact, my head is telling me no! Run! It's not real! My mind is raising a zillion questions and running wild shouting "you may love him, but that doesn't mean it's meant to be". What if he doesn't feel the same way? He doesn't talk about me and the way he feels about us like I do. What if love doesn't exist? And even if it does and this is true love and this really was love at first sight, life isn't a fairy tale. Life isn't a love story. Life isn't perfect. Life isn't like the movies.

Most boys cheat. Most boys are players. Most boys are liars. Most boys are complete jerks who only want one thing and will charm the hell out of you and tell you anything and be all romantic, but they say it to every other girl... why is love so complicated?"

Journal entry--Wednesday October 20, 2010

"The heaven we seek is little more than the projection of our homes into eternity." -President Stephen L. Richards

"So I've been praying harder and with more faith than ever about love, Aiden, and marriage, and whether or not I get married to Aiden or anyone in general I know it's our purpose for being here. To find our eternal companion who will be with us forever. Love is the best thing ever. This is why the adversary tries to fill our heads with doubts. Love is in us, born within our hearts, and he wants to destroy it and replace it with misery and hate because he can't have love.

This is why so many marriages fail because from the moment you find your sweetheart and fall in love until crossing over safely to our Heavenly Father, Satan will do absolutely everything to destroy and break the eternal bond we have with the one we love. He will always be there with doubts, fears, temptations, contention, conflict, anger, and sadness. He will always try to stir up trouble and exaggerate our trials until we feel like giving up, breaking, deciding it's not worth it. But it is. Love is worth everything.

Marriage will be the best yet hardest thing in life. However, as Heavenly Father has shown us, nothing worthwhile is ever easy. You must work every moment of everyday to get to happily ever after. You have to be strong, which is why you find your soul mate he made just for you to be by your side and become one with. You are two imperfect people striving together to attain perfection and Heavenly Father is always there for us. In love, you must sacrifice everything, but the reward is a million times better than we are capable of imaging."

"Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles, and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now, with each step you take, you grow stronger and stronger."

"It is inconceivable that God would desire to punish or to see his children in suffering or pain or distress. He is a God of Peace and tranquility. He offers joy and growth and happiness and peace."

"If one really loves another, one would rather die for that person than to injure him." -President Spencer W. Kimball

"Love is cleanliness and progress and sacrifice and selflessness. This kind of love never tires nor wanes, but lives through sickness and sorrow, poverty and privation, accomplishment and disappointment, time and eternity." -President Spencer W. Kimball

"Love cannot be forced... it comes out of heaven unasked and unsought." -President Gordon B. Hinckley

"Le Coeur De La Mer (The heart of the ocean)."

"I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You never know what hand you're going to get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you. To make each day count." -Jack Dawson

Journal entry--Thursday October 21, 2010

"Yes, I watched Titanic last night. I can't help it, I love it. Rose and Jack are an example of fate. They are meant to be but that doesn't mean everything will be perfect. You have to cherish and make the most of every moment with the one you love and fight with all you have against the forces trying to tear you apart but you must work together. And if you do those things, never let go, nothing can come between you or break that bond, not even death, because love is eternal.

Mom and Robert Allen got married today at 3:30 at the courthouse. Mom is now legally Angie Allen. Robert Allen is my stepdad, and Tyler, Jordan, Colton, and Tanner are my stepbrothers. It's definitely exciting. I'm so happy we're a family. McHale and I went and checked out Tanner, Christian, and Jordan from school to go to the wedding. We had lots of fun driving there. I love Tanner and having another little brother! We're like the Brady Bunch, but with five boys and three girls!

Mom is happy and so are we. Christian and Jordan have stability. And Robert Allen is a great man who loves us and helps care for my family. That's all that matters. It was a good day. I mean that's not at all how I want my wedding to be, but it's a step in the right direction for mom and Robert Allen. 

Haha after they got married, Tanner was joking around and asked mom if he should call her "mom" or "smom" hahaha! It made everyone laugh.

I went and saw Brie and had a heart to heart, much needed talk about Aiden and love. She uncomplicated things and calmed my doubting mind. She supports us. She gave me advice.

"Once you cared about a person, it was impossible to be logical about them anymore." -Bella Swan, New Moon p.304

"He called you pretty," he finally continued, his frown deepening.

"That's practically an insult, the way you look right now. You're much more than beautiful."

I laughed. "You might be a little biased."

"I don't think that's it. Besides, I have excellent eyesight."

-Twilight p.494

"Bella." His fingers lightly traced the shape of my lips.

"I will stay with you--isn't that enough?"

I smiled under his fingertips. "Enough for now."

He frowned at my tenacity. No one was going to surrender tonight. He exhaled, and the sound was practically a growl.

I touched his face. "Look," I said. "I love you more than everything else in the world combined. Isn't that enough?"

"Yes, it is enough," he answered, smiling. "Enough for forever."

-Twilight p.498

Then came the sudden, unexpected end.

Journal entry--Saturday October 23, 2010

"Aiden came into my life and today he left it. I honestly believed I loved him. Apparently I was wrong. I still feel like I love him. He doesn't love me. It hurts, not gonna lie. He broke my heart. Am I clueless? What is wrong with me? I'm so far from perfect, but I am a good girl, not good enough for Aiden though. I hate this feeling where you can't breathe and can't stop crying, where you feel so broken.

I think love doesn't exist. I'm a hopeless romantic who wants to be in love, sadly love doesn't exist. At least not for me. I want it more than anything. I'd do anything for it. Love is hopeless... or maybe I'm the hopeless one... that there's no hope for me."

I went on a three mile run that day in a black dress and heels sobbing uncontrollably under a black starlit sky eventually just stopping on the sidewalk of a road to put my head in my knees and bawl. My legs ached and my lungs were on fire, but the physical pain helped distract me from the emotional. Why was I running in a black dress and heels (and probably looked crazy to everyone who drove by)? Because Aiden and I had a date planned for that night. I made dinner for him. I went all out and cooked this homemade fancy dinner. And he calls me an hour before he is supposed to leave and informs me we're over and he's not coming--without an explanation. So that's why I was all dressed up. It was most definitely the hardest breakup I'd ever faced because it hit me out of nowhere. And it was done so harshly. Aiden took a big piece of my heart.

"Sometimes I wish I was a kid again... skinned knees are a lot easier to fix than broken hearts."

"And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving your scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul."


"I remember when we kissed. 
I still feel it on my lips.
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing.
I remember those simple things.
I remember till I cry.
But the one thing I wish I'd forget 
The memory I want to forget
is goodbye."

Journal entry--Monday October 25, 2010

"I got one hour of sleep last night so today I fall asleep at a decent hour (midnight) and then seriously? Seriously!? SERIOUSLY?! I wake up from a nightmare at 2:30 a.m. wide awake with a pounding headache... seriously?!

Okay so all weekend I've been grieving the loss of my relationship with Aiden. I mean it was the worst, most unexpected breakup ever. In a few weeks, I meet this amazing man, fall in love with him (infatuation), only to get my heartbroken in the end. And honestly, I'm not over it yet. However, I'm done feeling sad and depressed and crying wondering how could he do this to me if he loved me and what did I do wrong? I did absolutely nothing wrong. I'm far from perfect, but I am an amazing girlfriend. Incredible, actually. I did everything right.

He ignored me out of nowhere, just acted like I didn't exist nor matter, like I was a stranger not his girlfriend. He lied to me. He ditched me and stood me up when I made him dinner. Then he had the nerve to say things were moving too fast and he needed time when he was the one talking about our future, the things we were going to do, and even marriage. He said he's afraid of the feelings and love.

Truth be told, I need a man with courage who will take my hand and stay by my side and not be a coward and walk away without a valid explanation. See, I'd rather be running toward someone than running away despite the fears and risks.

And when you love someone, you'd rather die than injure them and Aiden (who I gave my heart to because he promised to catch me when I fell for him and said I could trust him) took my heart, stomped all over it, neglected it, and just threw it back like it was entirely worthless.

I loved Aiden. I still do. And now, given some time and serious reflection, I'm actually kinda glad this all happened so I didn't fall deeper and harder. That would've hurt more. And I don't want to and refuse to be with a man who has no courage and would treat the woman he supposedly loves like he did me in the end. I deserve better, the best, a man who will treat me like a princess, confide in me as a best friend, and face love head on with me. Aiden may profess to love me, but actions speak louder than words. He is incredible. I have nothing bad to say about him as a person, only about the way he treated me."

Journal entry--Thursday October 28, 2010

"Choose your love, love your choice." -President Thomas S. Monson

"Haha yesterday, Hannah, Rian, and I went and got a pizza at the PieHole and brought it home and watched Boy Meets World at 1:00 a.m. Priceless times.

So Aiden has been trying to text me and call me all week. I've been ignoring him because of what he did to me. I finally answered tonight to get an explanation. It really didn't help much but oh well. He just apologized profusely. He said he does love me despite what he did. I honestly don't believe he does.

He said he went and talked to his bishop about it. He said he's just scared because of how fast it all happened and how intense the feelings were. He said he likes life how it is now and doesn't want it to change. He says he doesn't know what he wants in life, who he is, and what makes him happy.

Well I forgive him and am glad this all happened. I am brave and fearless. I know what I want and who I am and I'm only 21. Aiden is 24 and doesn't have any of that figured out? I most definitely don't want a man like that especially when it comes to love. He seems like the type who runs when things get tough, and that's the last person I want to be with. 

The more I look at the events that transpired, and Aiden and I's short relationship, the realization comes to me that I didn't love him. I loved who I thought he was, not who he really is. I guess it was infatuation. I fell fast and hard for him. He didn't catch me. So I got up and walked away, and I'm going on to much better things... I'm a step closer to finding the one..."

Journal entry--Thursday December 9, 2010

"Aiden came by my house tonight. It was the first time I've seen him since we broke up. He was finally dropping off my mom's broken lamp piece that he fixed. He made small talk for about ten minutes as he stood in the cold. I didn't invite him in because I didn't want to talk/hang out with him after what he did to me. I still have feelings for him in a way. You could tell he wanted to though.

I acted like I had no interest in talking to him whatsoever. He could tell because he kept stopping and shaking his head and saying "You hate me! You totally hate me!" to which I rightfully denied because it's not true. As I told him, I don't hate him. But I'm definitely not his biggest fan. I don't consider him a friend either (I didn't mention the previous sentence to him or this one.) You don't do what he did to me if you care about someone. I trusted him and he broke that.

Well he ran out of small talk and started to say how sorry he was about us, and I stopped him. I told him it's fine! It's great. I've moved on and am happy, never better. Then he said that he's going to be in town in a week or so for a game his sister is cheering for and wants to see me. He said he wants to take me to dinner. (I'm thinking to myself seriously? Seriously! Seriously?!-- A Grey's Anatomy Seriously obviously). I said maybe (that is a polite no in my language). He said he'd call me and then reached out and held me in his arms to give me a hug. I hugged him back--a goodbye forever (in my mind) hug and that was that.

All I can say is my mom sure better love me for getting that lamp piece back :)

On Christmas/around that time, Aiden started texting me again. He was suddenly all into me. He was wanting to hang out. But as far as I was concerned, we were done. I could never trust him. I hadn't been so close to someone as I was to him. I have serious trust issues now. He walked away. He hurt me and it won't happen again. 

The ending= Aiden made plans to go to dinner with me and I STOOD HIM UP. He was in total disbelief that anyone could do such a thing! I know it was rude and stupid to do the same thing he did to me. Revenge isn't the answer. That wasn't even my intention. I was going to go. I got all dressed up and everything but couldn't let myself. Aiden hasn't the slightest idea how much I cared about him and the damage he did on my heart.  
I really wish the best for him and hope he can figure things out... what he wants. After all, it's one of the worst things not knowing what you want... I'll always care about him. He holds a place in my heart no one will fill. I truly want him to have the best life ever... even if I am not in it.

Want to get married?!

This is me and my dear roommate Hannah. 

So... we have decided we have this blessing/curse somehow bestowed upon us. 

We've come to the conclusion that everyone who lives with us and is a close friend will be married within a year of living with us. Why is this a blessing and a curse? Well it's great for our friends who live with us. They will enjoy marriage bliss. However, it's a curse because Hannah and I will be single for life. In fact, we call ourselves SLFL's (Single Ladies for Life). 

EXAMPLE #1-- Brie and Ty

Aubrey has been one of my best friends since kindergarten. She became Hannah's friend in high school. We practically lived together. We'd have sleepovers all the time. Brie met Tyson in 2009 and they fell in love. They were married in June of 2010.

EXAMPLE #2-- Brooke and Don

Okay so they aren't married yet, but they will be someday in the future! They are living together and going to school. They have been together for around two years and are incredibly happy. They are going backpacking in Europe for a month this summer! Brooke basically lived at my house in high school, and we would have sleepovers with Hannah. 

Example #3-- Rian and Dan

This is our gorgeous roommate Rian and her beau Dan. She's a sweetheart. We have become the best of friends. We told Rian about the curse when she first moved in. We told her she would be married within the year. She laughed it off and didn't believe it. But now she is falling in love with this nice guy named Dan. They are dating. She said she can see herself marrying him eventually! 

See! We are right. There is a curse/blessing. If Rian does get married, we are totally going to start an ad about it and everyone who is single will want to be our roommate because they want to get married and fall in love. So it works out in a way, because soon we will have so many people wanting to live with us, we'll start a business and move into a mansion or castle and have people paying to live with us, and that way Hannah and I can live happily ever after as SLFLs!

My Dream Wedding

My (Charley's) Dream Wedding

Location SLC Temple (Castle) :)

Ring

 So I really wouldn't probably want this as an engagement ring, but I just thought it was cool looking.

Bouquet 

Dress

I love all these dresses. The Izzie wedding dress is my favorite.

Shoes

I would love these in white :)

Bridesmaid Dresses

I want my colors to be pink and white. I want a vintage-y wedding. 

Reception

I want a ring ceremony at my reception. I think it would be amazing to have my guests hold sparklers or blow bubbles as my husband and I walked down the aisle.

 It would be incredible to leave the reception in a Cinderella thing like this.

I like all of these ideas as food to serve.

So this is just a rough draft/preview of my dream wedding <3